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PostSubject: No Desire To Remain Here   Fri Jan 30, 2015 2:40 pm

Just stopped by for a visit
But won’t stay long
Words engraved on pine boxes
serve no one
there is no dialogue
no exchange
no engagement
nor fellowship embraced
just a detached
implied strange perverse
kind of unconscious voluntary derangement
pictures in squares
clichés’ in prisons
self gratifying
no anointing
no urgent prompting
no holy spirit’s conviction
to hold hands or embrace
just ejaculations
spurted upon a cyber page
smarmy euphemisms veiled by pretentious erudition
while safe in our own comfort zones
too afraid to offend
or too easily offended
to even attempt to reach outside the box
nothing broken is nothing mended
came for a meeting
but got stood up
stats are high
the numbers don’t lie
but read by zeros
only equates to zero replies
I shoulda’ known better
I shoulda’ not hoped
I shoulda’ stayed dead when I died
Instead of waking up to a rope
I don’t know how I’m supposed to reach you
I’ve fallen down
And won’t be there to greet you
Hello Jesus…
Nice to finally meet you
warmest regards to Jonah
and say  " hey I feel ya' " to Job
Don’t send me out again
I don’t wanna go
Lord you know it’s a dark place
Always rainy and cold
Lemme warm myself in a sunny spot
let me find myself sprawled out trying to reinvigorate
like a reptile on a rock
There’s nothing left to give
I’ve given all I’ve got
Yes, yes, I believe your grace is sufficient
But how do you hold the attention
Of the spiritually deficient?
I’m inefficient, non-proficient…
Can’t you see how this tears at me?
These shoes don’t fit
And I don’t want em’
I was barefoot when you found me
At rock’s bottom
I’m a seer no one can hear
Walking through disasters
Chucking rotten eggs at false pastors
Bastards, don't you know you can’t serve two masters!
Hate one and love the other
Lord…do you know this man?
The one who cuts me down
As he calls me brother?
I thought I did
But I must have been mistaken
He’s not saved
He is taken
I’m chokin’ on vitriol and resentment
His condemnation threatens to break my peace
And fill me with discontentment
not disillusioned just disgusted
never sought after a return on this investment
Just let it fly as it came 
till wings melted 
I know this game too well
I used to play it
You see…
I’m walking away making a statement
Like St. Francis
Allow my silence to say it
I wasn’t born again just yesterday
you sent clues to signal your comin’
Though I wish I didn’t see them
tried to deny them as ridiculous, impossible
Wish I couldn’t see them ahead of time
so long ago…
You’ve done this to me…
though in the back of my mind
I’d always prayed You wouldn’t
Placed me between a rock and a hard place
I can’t deny you now
Even if I wanted to
I couldn’t
I’ve seen your face
Eyes of living flames
I gotta be honest with You
I don’t understand much of it
And loving You cuts like a knife
I’ve  tried my best to dot my eyes
Cross my tees as I drop to my knees
This dying to self business
To live for you
Is killing me…
it's killing me
To Life
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PostSubject: Re: No Desire To Remain Here   Tue Jan 24, 2017 8:13 pm

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PostSubject: Re: No Desire To Remain Here   Wed Jan 25, 2017 12:30 pm

I started this to help. I'm truly apologetic if I did not help. I have turned over the sites Administration to my better half. I am consumed with working a full time job. I am humbled by the fact that what I started as a Baby is being trashed upon by people I respect. "DRAMA" Episode 2 top follow

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PostSubject: Re: No Desire To Remain Here   Wed Jan 25, 2017 6:23 pm

"No desire to remain here" is about those days we all have at one time or another where we wish the Lord would just take us home. Nothing whatsoever to do with C.C.W. except for a "writer's" frustration, but that is prevalent all over even on my own blog in general not just here respectively.
I appreciate all your efforts in the past and can be nothing but grateful, thank you.

I pulled it out from the basket, it was written 2 yr.s ago. I was feeling this way again and just thought possibly that someone could relate...it's honest and from the heart.

You know that I don't hold back, can't even begin to describe what goes through one's mind when sirens are blaring and you don't know where you are, where you're going...complete disorientation and loss of equilibrium. The mind wanders all over the place in near death situations...but what is most prevalent or at least has been for me is the overall resignation, the complete submission, the blissful letting go, releasing of everything cleaved to and only one thing matters..."hello Jesus...it's me again...got a minute?"
It's a tough way to get there...but once there, you DON'T WANT TO LEAVE.

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PostSubject: Re: No Desire To Remain Here   Wed Jan 25, 2017 8:01 pm

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